Relationship PTSD
I have relationship PTSD and I’m sad about it. I’ve been hurt, burned, dumped and had my insecurities strewn across the hardwood floors of my apartment. My buttons were on display for men to push and they hit them hard. I had to suffer the consequences of being triggered over and over again. Maybe they… Read More
When You Lose A Friend – It’s Okay to Grieve
Losing a loved one when they die is a traumatic experience. Death leaves us missing people, longing to hug them, hear their voice, or just be in the same room with them. I remember when my friend Chris overdosed, it was sudden. I used to work with him at the veterinary clinic. He was so good… Read More
Being Smart And Analytical Hasn’t Helped Me, But This Has
I always knew that I was a smart person. I am good at analyzing situations and figuring out what people’s potential motivations are. It’s a talent that I have, reading people. understanding them and then telling that what I think they are feeling. Sometimes I’m on point and other times I get it wrong, but… Read More
Try These Great Self-Care Techniques
We’ve all been burnt out at one time or another. It’s so important to take care of yourself when you’re feeling depressed. Depression can make us feel lethargic, down and even hopeless. It’s one of the most debilitating mental illnesses out there. You don’t want it to get to the point where you’re suffering so… Read More
There is No Pizza Here
I’ve been despondent since September because there is no pizza in Portland. Yes, there are places that say that they serve something called “pizza” but they’re lying. Pizza doesn’t look like that. Pizza doesn’t taste like that either. Making pizza is an art form and if you don’t do it right, people from New York… Read More
How to Survive in The Pacific NorthWest If You’re From New York
I’ve been living in Portland, Oregon since September and it was quite the culture shock. I’ve lived in New York City for entire life, 37 years. I was excited about a change but also scared. I was under the assumption that people were generally super nice here, which I perceived as a welcome change from… Read More
I Didn’t Want to Be a Woman
Becoming a woman was never easy for me. I was always a tomboy growing up and I never wanted to be a “girl.” I played with all the boys and I wore boy clothes. I remember running around the beach without a shirt on and wearing boys swimming trunks; I was a rebel even at… Read More
Oy Gavolt I Miss New York
In the summer of 2017, I couldn’t wait to leave New York. I’d lived there for 37 years and it weighed on me. I was a stunted teenager who was enabled emotionally by my parents and our co-dependent enmeshed dynamic. It was my “fault” for not growing up, but I didn’t know how to, even… Read More
Poetry Releases My Feelings
I write poems that don’t rhyme. Like this one for example. This is not a poem. But I am anxious and completely out of my mind right now because I have too many things to do. So many things that I don’t even know that they are. I know who I am though. Poetry doesn’t… Read More
I didn’t want to believe that I was depressed
When I came to Oregon, I was in denial about my depression, well somewhat. I had just moved to the Portland area and I was nervous. It was the first time that I’d been on my own. It was the first time that I was able to actually express my independence in a real way.… Read More